it's MY life..i'll live it how I like.

new name

Tue, 10 Aug 2004 19:18:38 GMT

okay i dont like this user name sooo i switched over to - - xx_kissme_ soo for any NEW updates check it out over there and add me!! =) please lol . .xoxox <3 AMANDA.

Tue, 10 Aug 2004 01:30:21 GMT

just stoppen by to say hello.. cus im goen to kamilles..ill update whenever i get home .. xoxo <3 AMANDA

hey hey heyyyy

Sat, 07 Aug 2004 01:42:03 GMT

hey guys lol ..well i just got home from seeing little black book! it was cuttee i went with kamille and brittany.. and my mom picked us up and i yelled at her and she said i was "grounded" now.. i think ima go make gina's cake and then whenever they call get a ride to carly's or have my mom take me there cus its gina's birthday..well i dont want my mom to take me but u cant really help that..ewww =) lol i wanna have FUNNNN***;) ;) tonight if ya know what i mean..lmao =D hahaha.. well ima go0o start baking my cake! ! ! yay lol =) bye bye partiersssss.. lol xoxo <3 amanda

thinkinggggg - part 2 ! ! ! ! ! !

Mon, 02 Aug 2004 23:56:19 GMT

hey ! ! ! well guys i have been doing thinking.. when i read some ppl's journals i just get -a- thinking and realize how sometimes they're right and sometimes i disagree and shit but this is what i have to say today;

okay well i was reading this going to be "freshman's" journal .. and it was saying how she hopes things can go back to where they were before with her friend.. but i just realized that i say that al0t too.. but i think ima STOP; because u CANT go back to where u were at one time...it's too late- -everything has changed ..the day the time...u .. them .. ur whole life has...cus nothing stays the same..it really doesnt and it has hit me so0o many times before.. but i just REALLY realized it..hmm its soo weird.. i know that u're always saying we're gonna be best friends n0thing will change...things will change and sometimes these things will chAnge ur friendships and love lifes and ur whole LIFE in general..and it can either change it in a bad way or good way. at times change can be good because u realized what u have gained from keeping certain friends, what u miss with others, what u need to do with others, what u have gained from losing other friends, EVERYTHING! if u look back on it..it's kinda re-freshing....u realize u guys WERENT the same.. its odd. i dont know i really like things .. =) ii like thinking. i like my hair; even tho0o i wanna dye it ..lol =) .. i love my friends now.. i love u liz and kamille and gina and carly and amanda and amanda and marilia and casey and everyone and everyone else lol ..and i like being a cheerleader..i wanna try dance..i like u marissa and haley and yeahhh =) even tho0o we arent that close..i like talking to u when we do..i like being a funny person .. i like chilling .. ACTUALLY HANGING OUT WITH guys.. i like ashlee simpson's lyrics.. i likeeee punk , rock , hip hop and COUNTRY.. im not afraid to say it.. i wish i was skinner and shit.. prob. cus of the effect from society.. i DO want a boyfriend - but one that's right for me.. i DO want to make mistakes to learn from.. i DOOOOO wanna do good in school....i DO wanna set an impact on someone's life - a good one.. i wanna do a lot; i like alot.. i LOVE it ALLLLLLL =) hmm this is making me really relieved! =D yay! well lemme think some more.. oh yess to where i was before.. u cant go back to how things USED to be cus toooooooo much has changed, it really has.. u CAN start over though.. u CAN forgive even though u might NOT forget.. u CAN pick up where u left off.. but u cant go back in time and just rewind . . play . . change it to be perfect,. If u have seen the Butterfly Effect u'll know what im talking about - if u HAVENT. .u NEED too.. -> anyways if u did go back and time and changed ONE..ONE little detail ur life would come back to u totally screwed up.. it wouldnt be how u want it.. LIFE IS FUCKED UP AT TIMES..yess we all know this but u still cant go back and just change it and shit, life is written in pen.. not pencil =) thanks kim..ill nEver - well shouldnt - forget that quote.. anyways im done rambeling on for now..im gonna talk to u all later =D ahh soo fufilled! xo <3 AMANDA.

Sun, 01 Aug 2004 05:28:40 GMT

just updating really quick..by saying tonight was pretty GAYYYY!! for me.. lol and the last couple of nights have been pretty good =)go figure ;) me and gina are TWO FOXY MAMA'S [?] THAT U DONT WANNA MESS WITH. lol..the dance in the kitchen; well thats all the updating for now.. cus no1 bothers to READ OR COMMENT ..thanks guys lol.. xo. amanda.

p.s. gina if u read this; which i KNOW u will; im the UNWANTED one..UGH :(

what a fuss.. lmao

Tue, 27 Jul 2004 23:15:35 GMT

so i just helped krystal out with her journal..lmao.. she's a work! u gotta love her tho0o .. dumbass =) haha.. but umm... now she says it isnt work.. grrrr8!! but umm amanda k. is coming over tonight i think we're gonna watch movies and catch up.. lol .. and gina's grounding is different..lol.. let me see what happened last night.. ohh yess .. nothing and i feel asleep and woke up and more nothing.. then around 12 someone came over. .then after some time left.. and thennnnnnnnn i talked to krystal's dumbass online.. i <3 it soo much we have funny convo's ! and thenn i went to sleep and woke up around 2:40 ish and then around 3 went to eat at fridays with my sister got home around 5ish and have been online and walking around in my house since! fun fun ! huh!? andddd thennn yeah .. okay well ill update LATERRR .. bye XOXO <3 AMANDA.

. . .thinking

Mon, 26 Jul 2004 21:31:14 GMT

okay well im bored soo i started thinking..

when u say u dont care what people think u know it's a lie.. because u dO and will care.. i know its easier to be like fuck it.. but at one point in time.. ull care cus we're all self-concious.. it sucks but hey we are all that way... we care how we look; we care what people say about us -- esp. when it's about personal things.. like getting bout it or w.e - - - which brings me to the point in our GROUP of friends why do we say ooh i hate how girls are called hoes--but its good for guys to get some.. -- then we are okay when are friends do .. but then when ppl we aRENT so close too do theyre hoes?? i dont understand.. which im not saying i DONT ever say that cus i KNOW i have.. but its just soo weird.. everyone in this world is their own hypocrit [ srry about the spelling =) ] .. and isnt it funny.. how when we like someone we TRY to act normal .. cus thats "the best thing to do" ...but no matter how hard u try u cant --- or i cant and i know some other ppl who cant.. ; u just get all shy and dont wanna look stupid because u care HIGHLY of what they think .. ur every move counts.. its like a game or something. =) . it's all cus u want them to like u . . .and then when they dont ur CRUSHED.. its crazy - -guys on the other hand seem not too care; theyre gay .. but who cares! =) -- hmm but then eventually u stop caring what people think , and yeah- im sorry if this makes no sense i keep losing my train of thought from this DAMN chat room .. lol =) well anyways... . IMA GO.. ill ttyl cus i cant think! ! ! ! XOXO <3 AMANDA.

HEY!

Mon, 26 Jul 2004 16:51:50 GMT

okay soo i finally have another journal on LJ! ! ! ! how exciting! soo im making this cus im realllyyy kinda bored.. and i have nothing to do.. sOo.. WHATS NEW?! not tooo much here!! lol .. soOo ill update later! i cant believe after this week there's only two weeks left! ! ! ugh .. how sad - i think ima cry! this summer is soOOoOoOoOoooooOoOoOoOoOoOo FRIGGEN FUN!! I <3 IT!!! xox <3AMANDA.